Growing Familar

Dearest Tragedy,

I'm being to have those old familar feelings again. I've been blessed with a new start and imma make sure I don't mess up my blessing. I love my job, my roommates are freaking awesome seriously. So its time I find a school and start bettering myself. This city is growing on me and I'm starting to love it here, other than the drivers of course on that note I need to invest in a truck or suv with a bumper cage on it seriously lol. I miss my mom, sisters, family and my friends back home. I'm slowly making new ones here hopefully by this time next year I'll be a year closer to the education goal I just set for myself. The weight goals will have to weight lol loving this drivethru subway its seriously amazing!!!

Feeling Content

Dearest Tragedy,

Well so far its been a little over 3 weeks living in Columbus Ohio and I have to say that I'm liking it. When I went home for thanksgiving even tho I missed seeing my family I was anxious to get back to Columbus. I went out when I was back home and still felt like I didn't belong even tho I did have a good time with friends. So it seems like so far that this move to Columbus has opened my eyes a little bit, I know the grass isn't always greener on the other side but hey the only thing that I dislike about this city so far is the drivers lol.

Bring On The Adventure

Dearest Tragedy,

Here's a recap I'm still at riverside and I'm quiting I finally obtained a positionn in Columbus Ohio. I'm a lil nervous this will the the second biggest move I've ever done in my life so I guess its normal to feel a lil nervous. I'm 30yo and I'm finally getting out there again to try something new. I guess you can say my lil sis inspired me in a way. She's got a good head on her shoulders and I know if she can do it I can do it as well. I just know I have a lot of growin up to do in a short period time.

Dying On The Inside

Dearest Tragedy,

It's the middle of the year and I'll be turning thirty in a month or so. I'm mostly scared and a little upset with where I'm at in life. Yes I have made plans to change that I just hope I can stick to them and become a even better person when I've achieved my small little goals I have set. Soon I will be hitt the gym more since I'll have alot of extra time on my hands once school starts and moving in with a close friend, I hope he can help whip me into shape as well. I going to try to put love on the back burner and learn to love myself as much as I can. I haven't been doin a good job at that.

Needing Clarity

Dearest Tragedy,

It's two months closer to my birthday month and as it gets closer I get more and more upset with myself at where I am in life. I can't really blame no one but myslef I set too high standards for myself. Will obtaining a little more education actually make feel better about myself and will my life change like I hope it will. Most times I wish I had someone to come home to, but I don't pretty sad huh.

Losing Myself

Dearest Tragedy,

Well its mother's day didn't really get moms anything, but I did tell her happy mothers day. I'm not myself anymore I'm never happy or motovated to do anything anymore, maybe I'm sick and don't know it...who knows right. I was talkin to this kid in Atlanta, but like everything else that didn't seems like a pattern and of course I look like the bad guy; jerk; and the ass even. What is wrong with me, maybe I should just take my life wouldn't thing be easier on everyone. I am lazy I am stupid I'm worthless what's is my reason for being here.

Upcoming Events

Dearest Tragedy,

Soon I will be headed to Chicago for BearPride weekend most say it will be a blast, but I have my reservations like I always do when goin to a bear event. I just hope that I'll let everything go amd just be myself reguardless of what others may think of me. After that fingers crossed I'll be preparing to get ready for school. Its gonna be a long road, but I'm it will be worth it.