Saturday, March 5, 2016

Inside My Mind

Dearest Tragedy,
    So I moved to Fort Lauderdale Florida and so far I guess things are ok. I'm still inside my head about a few things. Yes my color is still an issue, but also my weight has increased which I'm very upset about. I can't really so anything about it cause I have to keep working to keep money in the bank. Everyone is all about BODY in ft lauderdale more than any other place. I need to drop 80lbs like asap, but that's going to be something hard to achieve. I'm always chasing something or someone and I know I've said that lots of times, but it's the truth. I dream of things that I'm afraid to grasp for some reason.    We went to San Francisco recently and I guess you can say I was promiscuous more than I've ever been. Most people won't admit it, but I will. The funny thing I always wondered what a plentiful sex life would be like. I can now say I know, but each time it's becoming more like putting on clothes. I want to settle down yet I know I'm not fully financially ready to completely take care of someone yet. It'd have to be the "daddy" persay because I live on the road. I love it out here and maybe it's my fear of not being able to conform to another office job, but I love the open road even tho I'm technically homesless. Hopefully one day I can be stronger and take more changes.

Sincerely Yours,
Tragic